Back in the Game

It's been a little while since I wrote anything here. We took a break from treatments, and I haven't been hit with inspiration since I talked about adoption. Meanwhile, we've started a GoFundMe to try to raise money for possible IVF, but we're not quite there yet. First, our clinic wants us to go through at least one round of IUI with injected fertility medications.

And that's friggin terrifying.

 I'm not afraid of needles. I'm not a huge fan of them, but I'm not afraid of them. But I'm not hyped about giving myself injections. Or having Chris give them to me. The more I think about it, the more I feel like rolling into a ball and weeping.

Along with the injections comes with an increased chance of pregnancy, but also the increased risk of multiple pregnancies. It's funny, so many people act like this should be touted as a "bonus" rather than a "risk," and I totally understand that. If we're paying for a procedure like this, why not get two babies for the price of one!

And for the most part we agree. Though we understand that a twin birth would come with the potential of additional complications, we're 100% willing to accept that. However, the moment someone mentions triplets, both of us start breathing a lot harder and get heart palpitations.

But hey, this might finally get us the baby we so desperately want, so in a couple days, I will stick a needle in my belly. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay